Senioritis is taking it's toll.

block schedule todaaay boo. and late start ftw. but it's all good cause it was 1st, 3rd, and 5th period aka my chill classes. 1st was english though. we had to write some bullshit in-class essay on hamlet and he didn't even give us the prompt before hand so nobody studied. then he tells us in class that we'll have friday to finish it too, so everyone decided to chill and not do anything. including me. -_- i hella didn't feel like going to school. i don't even do anything in 3rd (TA for english) and 5th (band). but i knew i had to do that stupid essay. anyway, i'm in 3rd. these juniors are doing a practice synthesis essay for the AP test. haha, i hella remember doing that lsat year. so i signed on to AIM via AIMExpress and i IMed someone not realizing the speakers were on. so it's hella quiet and all of a sudden you hear this LOUD ASS IMing sound hahahahah and everyone was like O_O WTF WAS THAT. my baaad. so..my party is in 3 days. and i'm hella stressing (as always) cause i need to decide where the hell i'm going for college too. and i need to figure out what i'm going to do with my life. it makes me sad thinking about college but then again, i can't wait to graduate and get some freedom. and i have yet to study for the 4 AP tests that are coming up in less than 2 weeks. fuuuuuuuck. ANNND, lately, i've had this mentality where i'm not really giving a flying fuck about anything, and i know that's hella bad. life isn't too great right now, but with so many unexpected events that happened, i realized so many times that you can't take your life for granted..this past week was ngoc tran's 4 year death anniversary and wynne chau's birthday. and eirene galism and anthony rea had to leave us too. (rest in peace to all 4 of you guys.) just thinking about those things made me realize how precious life really is. and as ironic as this sounds, i actually got something out of "Thank You and You're Welcome" when i finished reading it. kanye is a pretty intelligent person. i don't know if i'll ever find the strength to fight through all the obstacles i'm facing right now, but i know i have faith in what i do. i have yet to discover the happiness that truly makes everything worthwhile, but i'm trying my hardest to look on the bright side of things. i'll continue later. the bell is going to ring.